my freckles

are fading faster than you can say "Anapurna", and so are the memories of being in india. im semi giving up on korea. once again i don't know what to do. i've given myself one month.

the pros of staying:
-my job is FANTASTIC. the kids are AMAZING and lovely and they call all pronounce my name (this is a biggie believe me!!)
-my apartment is super cozy and i've made it into a craftastic pad (kristin remember kraft korner?)

cons:
-feeling lonely often, too often.
-not having the needed paperwork yet for the job.
-being ready to go, when i feel stuck

blah. today i feel blah. yesterday great, the last few days fucking fantastic, but today blah.

day four

yesterday i picked up my bike and i zoomed (well andrea styles zoomed which means not zoomed at all) around bundang singing stevie wonder at the top of my lungs. who doesn't love a girl with white hair on a granny bike singing superstition? I'm so happy to have my bike back and to see that winter didn't destroy it as i was worried it would have.

i'm staying at my friend's house for this week and it's interesting living with a korean family. her parents can't speak much english so poor Hwa sun has to sit and listen to her mother and then translate everything and wait for my response and do the same. and from watching Tarumina and Darmesh do this all the time in india, i know it can be exhausting.

i get to eat fish and rice for breakfast which is my favourite.

so the past few days have been better and better. the initial shock of heart break has worn off and i'm feeling alright? well nearly all right maybe. i'm so happy to have my friends. to get letters from everyone and to know that i have so many close connections with people in so many places. and this makes me wonder why i don't have this in korea. you know, i left india after meeting some amazing people in bhopal that i know i will keep in contact with and i have such an easy time making friends all over, but why the hell not in korealand? maybe things will change now that the situation is make friends or be alone.

ciao bellas

so long, farewell, i don't know how to spell in german...

how can i say goodbye to india? well however i do it today, i will be doing it from the toilet i'm sure. i've been sick for 90% of the time i've been here, i do believe. india and my stomach do not agree. and now i go home. and what do i go home to? i don't know. louis and i have not communicated in a week because well... i have no idea... he doesn't call me and doesn't answer his phone or email which leads me to believe that i may return to korea to face some horrible situation i didn't think would be the outcome of this trip. and for a small part i think my latest bout of stomach pain is due to this situation. i'm so confused and angry and ramblely

anyway, ignore the above verbal diarrhea (since i'm full of it anyway) and what else. today i forgot i was back in Delhi and wore a dress. after the walk of shame i just did to go get breakfast I'm weary of going back outside to walk to the hotel to change my clothes.

home i go ...