the next year in stolen pictures....

a lot of planning is underway. hopefully my hogwan will get everything a ok and i will be on a plane heading to Amsterdam come Decmber 21st. But a la Korean styles I won't know about the booking of my ticket until the last possible minute. maybe it will be a few days before, who knows.  i just have to have some blind faith that it will happen and work out because most things here are like that.

When i came to korea i had very little information from my recruiter about what date i would actually come until probably the week before i got on the plane.

I'm terrible excited to go to holland. I get to see my niece whom I've never met,  and of course see my sister and her husband. My dad has also decided to come to holland for Christmas. i'm going to be an optimist and not write anything negative about this now. it's too far away to think about now anyway but not seeing your family for some time and then here you go, all together again 24/7 for a week does bring up some...feelings. 

I would like to bike my ass off while high (well maybe... i don't know if i can smoke the pot anymore since those reoccurring bad episodes involving me and pot and the anxiety, but god, i'm going to be in amsterdam so i better just be able to do it) 

 From there I go to...

the India. this is the trip I've been excitied for forever.  Ii've spent years reading Indian novels and being obsessed with the land of babu Gandhi. I am feeling anxious also, which makes my stomach hurt like eating glass (yeah i eat broken windows all the time ok so I know what that feels like). This feeling doesn't go away for long periods of time. i can't go to sleep because i feel anxious and then i get anxious that i'm not asleep and i have to get up in too few hours. it's a bad cycle.

Then the plan is Taiwan. this here is taiwan. god what beauty awaits us! I haven't researched it enough so i don't really know what to write about taiwan. i'm assuming that it will be the same situation work wise as korea,a lot of money when you find the right job teaching rich kids their abc's. 

  I'm not feeling the love for my job of late. our school is merging with another school that has moved in to our building, and they have a kindergarten (we only teach elementary kids starting in the late afternoon). I think our school and the new school made some deal with yours truly being the pawn who was going to be used to teach at both schools. Meaning that the new school thought they were going to get an english teacher for free. I declared that when my contract was up (oct 9th) i would not renew and i would quit. there is no way in hell I am coming in at 10 am every morning again. after much intolerance on my part and much begging on their part i agreed to come in at 1pm everyday. i still don't like it.

I'm also dreaming that in September to take the trans Siberian railway half way around the world.  well, looking at it on a map it looks like half way around the world.
this trip looks unbelievable and unimaginable! i'm not letting myself dare to dream yet because everything seems to be too good. i'm rambling too much today, maybe it's because i haven't written a blog posting in awhile.  when ever i start writing it's very negative, or too emotional or about my relationship with Lois and how I feel anxious all.the.time. these are not the things i want to bore you with dear reader. i want to spark the travel bug withing you and get you to join me on a train that goes 10,000 km across two continents.... yes yes... yes.....